Well, I realized a long time ago that life isn’t fair & life isn’t always “a walk in the park”…I got a big dose of taking a walk somewhere other than the park this last week.
I got a temporary job & was pretty thrilled with the prospect of finally working; even for a little while, & making a little bit of money. That was the climb on my roller coaster. Things were looking up. Well, I was in for a shock. I learned very quickly this week that some people are just downright mean & next to impossible to be around. My new boss (who shall remain nameless…I wouldn’t want anyone coming after me) assigned me tasks to do without explaining how to do them – asking for directions got me yelled at, while trying to do the work to the best of my knowledge & making a mistake also got me yelled at. Fun! After 2 days of being made to feel incompetent by the boss, as well as some words of advice from a co-worker (that woman will drag you down in a matter of days) I decided on day three as I was en route to work that it just wasn’t worth the money to be beaten down each day, dreading the next day of work the minute I left at 5.
I had a really rough day on Wednesday. I wasn’t too happy with myself about quitting. Luckily, I have the love & support of some wonderful friends & a great set of parents who I was able to talk to about the whole mess.
So…now, here I am again. Just waiting. Praying for direction & purpose in my life. I know that the Lord has a divine purpose for each person & so I’ll wait faithfully to see what the next step is.
Well, I blogged so despondently just 2 days ago & I’ve managed to have a pretty quick turn around. Thanks to a family friend, I now find myself employed! Now granted, the job is a temporary position & may last only a few weeks (although it could last a few months) but it is still a job!
Getting this temp position reminded me that I should really be more thankful. Yes, I have been looking for a job since May & even now I can only get a temporary position but I haven’t actually been suffering. When things seemed to be getting tight for me & I thought I was going to run out of money, the Lord miraculously would supply me with a baby sitting job, a chance to be a substitute teacher or even the random odd job. Even now, I was lucky enough to have a baby sitting job this week & step right into my new temp job on Monday.
So, basically I’m just saying that I’m thankful for the blessings I’ve been given. The Lord is going to provide for me in the way that he sees fit; in the way that works according to his plan for my life. I just have to be patient & take my time letting the journey unfold. It will all work out in a way that I can’t imagine but I know that whatever the Lord has planned, it will be wonderful.
Now all I have to do is wait for the plan to unfold….
Well, I haven’t written anything in a while. I haven’t exactly been busy, I suppose I just haven’t had anything to write about. I guess that is what life is like when a person is unemployed. I have lots of time on my hands but usually I don’t have a lot to do with all that time.
I spent the better part of this morning looking for jobs & I don’t know how fruitful my search was. I applied for 4 different jobs but considering I’ve applied for so many so far & with so little luck, I’m having a hard time being optimistic about these. I usually manage to have a positive outlook but in this one area, my optimism is waning quickly. I guess it is time to up the prayers about remaining confident in the Lord’s will & direction for my life.
I suppose this wasn’t the perkiest blog, but then again people are allowed to have days when they are less than positive. Hopefully things will look up soon.
So, in my last post I talked about subbing with some delightful little 1st graders. Well they really aren’t as wonderful as they seem. They are actually just tiny little vehicles for carrying germs. I subbed one day & woke up the next day with an awesome cold. I guess the numerous trips to the Kleenex box & that one little girl who told me “my throat feels scratchy” should have been the major warning signs.
I really am kidding about kids being tiny vehicles for carrying germs. I mean, don’t get me wrong; they are. They are also sweet & wonderful. I enjoyed my first subbing experience, although I probably would have enjoyed it more if it hadn’t come with a parting gift that involved a raw nose, a ravaged throat & a pounding headache. My head is actually pounding as I write this & my meds are starting to kick in…although the part that is supposed to help the headache doesn’t seem to be working. So, in the spirit of sickness this post will be short.
I have learned that even if you use the hand sanitizer 5 times when subbing, you should probably have used it 10 times. And if a kid tells you her throat is scratchy, don’t hug her…back away…quickly. Heres to hoping I feel much better in the morning. I have to teach a room full of 5 year olds Sunday School…yikes!
I was a sub today at good ol’ West Lauderdale Elementary. I was a little apprehensive at first, but not for the reasons one might think. I was a little concerned that I might spend the day with kids & decide that I had missed my true calling & needed to be a teacher. I spent my day with 1st graders. I had a revelation, but not that I had missed my calling.
I was never meant to be a teacher. I love kids; kids are awesome & amazing. I don’t want to be a teacher though. I can handle “teaching” in substitute teacher increments. I will keep on subbing (Lord willing) until I get a job. I can now say with confidence that teaching won’t be that job.
Spending time at the elementary school today brought back a lot of memories. I watched the kids all playing together & it made me remember being little. A time when your biggest worries were subtracting 2 from 8, coloring inside the lines & getting your friend to trade snacks with you during snack time. I remember running around with wild abandon on the playground, holding my best friend’s hand & thinking that boys most certainly had cooties & were impossible to understand. But who am I kidding, boys still have cooties & I think the older I get, the harder it is to understand them.
It was nice to be a “teacher” for a day. I wouldn’t want to do it every day for 9 months. I think that teachers are special people that the Lord blesses with a gift for teaching. The Lord gives everyone special gifts & I know that being a teacher isn’t one of them. So, for now I’ve removed one job option from the list. Teacher = nope.
Besides, I’m sure my parents are thrilled to hear that. If I came home & announced that I was going back to school, they might faint. 🙂
Wow…how did 26 years really go by so fast? Or is it technically only 25 years, since I am just at the start of the 26th year today? I’ll ponder that one later…. I am certainly a blessed person, so I thought I’d take a little time today to mention some of the most wonderful people/blessings I have been given in the 26 years I’ve been hanging out on this little planet we call Earth!
-The first blessing I recieved in life was to be born to my wonderful parents. I couldn’t have picked a better set of parents than the two I have. They have raised me with constant love & support. I don’t remember a single softball game, peewee basketball or football game (go Red Team!) dance recital or school function that they weren’t at. My parents are not just a Mom & Dad, they are my cheerleaders, my coaches & most importantly, my friends.
-Another really important blessing in my life is my friend Nickolee. I’m doing this whole list in chronological order, so she makes the list at number two…cause I think we may have been younger than two when we first started playing together. We started out as big buddies when we were small & though elementary school seperated us, high school pushed us back together! We stuck by one another through homecomings, tests, break-ups & boys…the ups & downs of high school & yet again, we were pulled apart by college life. God blessed me by bringing us back together after college & I couldn’t be more happy to have her in my life. I think with a true friend, you can be seperated by time or miles, but you will always find a way to get back to one another. So, after all these years I am so blessed to have Nickolee in my life!
-I kind of think this next blessing is one of the most important…and that is my little sister. Now, when she was first born I can honestly say that I just wanted to send her back. She was red, wrinkly & she cried far too much for me to think that we really needed to keep her around…but boy how those younger siblings can grow on you! We fought plenty as we grew up & I know sometimes my Mom thought we’d never get along. Boy, how things have changed! I just didn’t know how lucky I was getting that night in November. I cannot imagine having a more wonderful best friend in my life & I’m lucky enough that she is also my little sister.
-The MOST important blessing I have in my life is my salvation. I aaccepted Jesus as my Lord & Savior when I was 6. I certainly haven’t been perfect since then, but God doesn’t call us to be perfect. God loves & accepts us all as we are – works in progress. We are called to live according to his will & be a light for him on Earth. I made the decision to do that 20 years ago & it has & will always be the most important decision I will ever make.
—Gonna make a big jump in time! Not that from ages 6 to 17 weren’t great, but I’m hitting the high points—
-When I was a Junior in high school, this 8th grader joined the WL Chorus. I can’t remember if he joined because he played the piano so well or just sang that good (probably both) but unbeknownst to me, that 8th grader would become my best friend. Over lunch in the choir room, I got to know David. Our relationship progressed from those lunches to movies, dinners, concerts…well…since we live in Collinsville, that is really about it. Even though he is 3 years younger than me & is also a guy, I found in him someone who just “got me” & everyone needs someone like that. I’ve been able to call him my best friend for the past 9 years (cannot believe it has been that long!) & I am so thankful for him!
-The final thing I am thankful for (that I’m gonna put on this list) are the friends that I made while I was at school at USM. I never planned to go to USM but the Lord had different plans for me. I met so many wonderful people during the 3 years I was there, some of whom will probably be my friends for years to come. I am so blessed to have friends like Kristen, Lisa, Kayla & Bart. There were so many people who made my time at Southern great, but those 4 just added so much to the experience!
I guess that isn’t so long a list, but those are certainly things that I am most thankful for at this point in life. I have a wonderful family, amazing friends & a personal relationship with my Lord. I’d say for 26 years that I’m a pretty blessed person. Now then…I’m gonna stop blogging & go do whatever I want – because its my birthday! 🙂
Well, I’ve always wanted to have a blog of my own & so while watching “Dancing with the Stars” tonight, I just decided to get to it! I started one about 6 months ago but I just kind of forgot about it, haha!
I am definitely in an interesting place right now in life. As a recent college graduate (Go Eagles!) I am busy looking for a job in a job market that isn’t so friendly. The past few months have proved beyond stressful at times but I am really learning that I have to trust that the Lord is guiding each step that I take & that he will lead my life in the direction it is meant to go. I am becoming quite the pro at going on job interviews – I’m learning that there isn’t anything wrong with bragging on yourself, although I am learning that bragging on myself is not one of my strengths. They seem to like asking “what are your strengths & weaknesses?” At least now I have an answer, ha ha!
My exciting life (that is sarcasm, in case you couldn’t guess) also includes living at home. I never imagined that I’d be living at home at 25…26 in just 2 days….but I guess I can’t complain. I don’t have to pay rent or buy my own groceries, which is a good thing since I don’t have a job & therefore don’t have any money. I really can’t complain – I have wonderful parents who are a constant source of support & love.
Well, I guess that is about all for now…not too much to say this time around. I am gonna try to keep this thing updated pretty regularly. I think if I have things written down like this, I can look back & see how much my life is changing from one week to the next.
I’ll leave you with my favorite verse; my life verse actually. “I have been crucifed with Christ & I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me & gave himself for me.” That is really exactly what I’m trying to do with my life, live by faith that the Lord will guide my steps.